Dear Teenage Jana,
You are not fat! You may not yet know how to transform your physical self into what you want to see looking back at you in the mirror, but you will one day. Your body is beautiful just the way it is. It will provide you two beautiful children and allow you to do things you never thought you could achieve (like a mini tri!)
You are pretty and you have great skin. Appreciate it now! The wrinkles and worry lines creep up on you and before you know it you are buying anti aging serums and anything with retinol.
Its going to take you a while to figure out success and happiness. There are going to be ups and downs, disappointments and heartaches, AND you are going to learn a lot of things the hard way. Its ok. Dont look back with regret. In the end your definition of success and happiness will change and you will realize you had it all along.
The grunge look is NOT cool! It just isnt, and it isnt you. SO STOP IT!
You are super smart and one day you will learn to hone that intelligence. You may not be disciplined right now, but that's ok. No one is there to show you what that looks like, but you will figure it out and when you do you will accomplish some really great things.
Some of your family members will become your best friends. So cool huh?
Stop talking back to your mom. She's trying really hard and doing her best. Most times our parents best isn't perfect. You will appreciate this idea more when you have kids of your own.
Like attracts like. Be nice, smile at people, offer genuine friendship and reject high school pettiness. You might not find yourself with the "in" crowd, but you will have meaningful friendships...those are more important in the long run.
Dont get discouraged. Times will be tough but keep a good cheer leading section and you will be ok.
Smoking is NOT cool. period.
Enjoy the small things and be glad for what you have. I know all you can see it what is miserable and lacking, but you have a lot. Take a look around and appreciate it.
You have a good eye for style. Those Stan Smith sneakers are still cool. So rock on with your bad self and be true to your own style.
You are going to have kids. Even though you think you don't really want children, you are going to have them and you are going to be better for it (and you make a darn cute pregnant person). They will change your life, increase your capacity for love and compassion, and help you focus on the things that truly matter.
Be a person of your word. Try your best to always be that. This is a really important quality, especially in this day and age...its almost rare.
Your faith will save you. In your darkest moments your faith will hold you up, so be glad that your parents raised you with it, and even though its SUPER annoying when grandma puts scripture in your cards or tries to talk to you about Gods love, be patient and remember its her way of loving you.
You are going to meet an amazing man. He's just going to be a kid when you find him, but you will know he has a special heart. There will be lots of ups and downs, and hard times in the first couple of years but he is going to become an incredible man, husband, and father. You will have the marriage you always dreamed of.
Remember to love yourself, you are a fantastic person ;)