I wish I could say something super hopeful and inspirational for the new year, but I am just not feeling it. I did make one resolution and that was to drink a glassful of water first thing in the morning when I get up. This morning I managed to do that and then washed it down with a PB&J which incidentally was what I ate to ring in the new year (trend?). Not sure what that is all about.
Don't get me wrong its not that I am not hopeful, its more that I have no idea what this year will hold for me because I can't seem to make a decision about my life. I keep plugging away at the goal of PA school even though I seriously just want to stay home with my kids. I know that soon they will be off to school, and then what will I do? So I keep plugging away knowing that when they start elementary school I will have a job to fill some of my time with and supplement our "lifestyle"....more to come on all of these ramblings....as they develop.
Christmas was wonderfully hectic like it is every year. Each year I vow for something more simple, and we did accomplish that to some degree this year, but its the running around to see every parent and grandparent that is just so tiring and senseless. Another reason why leaving the state completely would be AWESOME!
During the holidays I just want to hole up in my house with my husband and babes and cuddle, make cookies, play, and vegg out in front of the occasional Christmas movie. simple. simple. simple. AND I want to do homemade gifts. I just feel like there is SO much thoughtless gift giving. Seriously, don't buy me a gift just for the sake of it. I did have one of my best girlfriends up here to spend the holiday with us and help keep me sane and that helped a lot. She and Derrick enjoyed checking out the local breweries and we also squeezed in a trip to Powells bookstore.
Yesterday I went out to blow one of the gift cards I received and I was tickled to find these Anthropologie bowls at a discount retailer for $5 each, when I believe they are originally 12. That made my day even though going to this discount retailer nearly sent me into a black hole depression. I feel like we are so out of touch with each other as humans and this particular consumer marketplace was just BAD! Rather than have the actual cashier say "I can help the next person" They have an automated voice saying "cashier 4 will help you now" I felt like I was in the movie WallE. It was bizarre and I could not wait to grab my anthro bowls and get the heck out of dodge.
In the next couple of weeks I am going to reflect on what is really important to me. What my values are in this life and how I can translate that into my everyday actions. I know this year will be great because I know I have all I need; my kids, my husband, my health, and a lot of love. The rest remains to be seen.